Non Nisi Te, Domine

“Non Nisi Te, Domine“ —St Thomas Aquinas

Nothing but You, Lord

Mariella Sucia Lapid, RMT, MLS(ASCPi)CM

Registered Medical Technologist 🇵🇭 International Medical Laboratory Scientist 👩🏻‍🔬

All throughout the journey my prayers have always been:

Lord, Thy will be done.

Lord please make me an instrument.

Jesus, I trust in You

Not because I doubt my capabilities but because I know that no matter how well I study, no matter how well I plan out everything, If it’s not His will then anything else could happen. All along it was me just trying to be open with what God wants even when most of the time, the process hurts so so much.

Many people probably wonder why I waste so much time prioritizing going to mass, or praying the rosary, or reading the scriptures when i could have used that time to do more important things other than that. I myself didn’t think i would be this person I am now but I feel like I know how it is to gain the world, and to feel like you have it all and still feel empty. And that’s when I realized that just having God, no matter how empty you are, will fill you up. No matter how impractical it may seem, and yes, it is so so hard, but one way or another, God definitely provides.

“For what will it profit a man, if he gains the whole world and forfeits his life? Or what shall a man give in return for his life?” —Matthew‬ ‭16:26‬ ‭RSV-CI‬‬

I actually think that I learned about me and life more than just the “theoretical and practical aspects” of my profession. God has been teaching me so many virtues: patience, prudence, humility and so much more. i can’t remember how many Litany of Trust, and Litany of Humility have I prayed that has always kept me in perspective. That i am doing this for God to be His instrument, and not just for myself.

I drove 3 hours from Lakewood, Washington to Salem, Oregon for my exam, with going to confession, and mass receiving communion in between, I can’t imagine how did I ever had the mental capacity to finish a 100-item exam. What I only know is that, I wanted to receive Jesus.. so I can journey this exam with Him. Whenever it felt overwhelming, I stopped for a bit and pray The Lord’s Prayer, Hail Mary, Glory Be, and the Apostle’s Creed randomly and each time it gave me that peace.

Thank you also for roommates Anne and Kim for always being patient and understanding with me. I love you both!!!