In Sheer Silence

Not present on social media lately but i’m working on alot of things and i am mentally healing day by day.. 🌸

My therapist said, “Don’t ever feel guilty about choosing yourself because it was a life and death situation and you chose life.”

God taught me in many ways to always be myself even when I am going against what everybody else is doing. That It’s okay to not be one of the cool kids. That It’s okay to be alone and to love being alone. As outgoing as I seem to be on social media, i like to deal with alot of things in silence because that’s where i am at peace the most.

In the bible story in 1 Kings 19:11-13, Elijah was looking for God in the strong wind, earthquake, and fire but God was not there. He only found God in the sheer silence. Saint Mother Teresa of Calcutta said, “In the silence of the heart, God speaks.” And it truly resonated with me in many ways and in many times, the good and the darkest of times.

In the past, I was so angry and I have always asked God why I have always been separated from my family and friends. Me not being allowed by my parents to go out and have fun with friends, going to a different college, then having to leave the rest of them (my family and friends) to live with my Dad in Guam, then having no choice but to live on my own after my dad passed away.. and now here in the US. Only to realize that God has not been punishing me rather teaching me a very valuable and arguably one of the most important lesson in life, the value of silence that made way for me to meet God. The noise of the world can pull you to many different directions but in silencing the world, that’s when you’ll be able to hear God the loudest.

Only in God’s loving arms I found unshakable peace.

Love and prayers,

Mariella

Mariella S. Lapid, RMT, MLS (ASCPi)

Travel Medical Laboratory Scientist

“The Lord bless you and keep you!

The Lord let his face shine upon you, and be gracious to you!

The Lord look upon you kindly and give you peace!”

— Numbers 6:24-26

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